How do I get to the point where I am confident with the decisions I am making regarding the welfare of my child? These first 2 months have been easy- now, with his 2 month appointment and vaccines coming up, I'm going crazy with doubt. I want to get him vaccinated, I'm just not sure if I like how many vaccines they do all at once. I'm afraid to make the wrong the choice. I'm afraid I'll never be okay with whatever choice I make.
And this is only just the beginning. I've always had a problem with trusting myself, so how can I trust that I can make the right choices for my son regarding ANY issue? I know that everyone makes mistakes, but if over the next 18 or so years of Keegan's life, I freak like this over every single decision, that won't be good for him (or me!) either. I never had to worry about any of this with Jayden, because while I can have opinions on what is best for her, I ultimately can not make those decisions.
The first choice I had to make for him was to keep him intact or to cut him- I am super confident in my decision with that, but I wonder if that is the last time I will ever feel that way.
I have a problem with assertiveness as well- so how am I supposed to step up and defend and ask questions regarding the care of my son when I am so uncomfortable asserting myself to people in authority (doctors, even daycare workers) or anyone I don't trust 100% of the time? I think the only person I am truly assertive with all the time is my husband.
I cleaned up my friends list a little bit. I deleted people who either don't post or who I don't even remember anymore. If you find I deleted you and want a re-add, same drill, send me a message here. I also changed up my layout. :-D
Write 10 things you want to tell 10 different people Don't let people comment, and never talk about it with anyone again:
1. I never really got over you. 2. I'm lucky to have met you, and I don't know what I'd do without you in my life. 3. You taught me what it was like to have a mother, and for that I'm eternally grateful. 4. I still haven't forgiven you for the way you treated me when we were kids. 5. You and I made a really big mistake. 6. You're the most beautiful woman I've ever met, but you'll never know I feel that way. 7. Why the hell do you have to make everything a fucking pissing contest? 8. I don't regret knowing you, or loving you. 9. You seriously need to lighten up. 10. I promise you, one day he will just propose.
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