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My journal is friends only. If you have come here and are curious to learn more about me, I'd be happy to have you on my list.

Please reply to this post to let me know how you found me and why you want to be my friend; then, add me to your own friends list and I will most likely add you back.

http://www.timesonline.co.uk/tol/life_and_style/health/article2761868.ece

http://youtube.com/watch?v=aZLs29EfPXw

(If you can't handle the truth, maybe you should think about the choice you are making!)

How do I get to the point where I am confident with the decisions I am making regarding the welfare of my child? These first 2 months have been easy- now, with his 2 month appointment and vaccines coming up, I'm going crazy with doubt. I want to get him vaccinated, I'm just not sure if I like how many vaccines they do all at once. I'm afraid to make the wrong the choice. I'm afraid I'll never be okay with whatever choice I make.

And this is only just the beginning. I've always had a problem with trusting myself, so how can I trust that I can make the right choices for my son regarding ANY issue? I know that everyone makes mistakes, but if over the next 18 or so years of Keegan's life, I freak like this over every single decision, that won't be good for him (or me!) either. I never had to worry about any of this with Jayden, because while I can have opinions on what is best for her, I ultimately can not make those decisions.

The first choice I had to make for him was to keep him intact or to cut him- I am super confident in my decision with that, but I wonder if that is the last time I will ever feel that way.

I have a problem with assertiveness as well- so how am I supposed to step up and defend and ask questions regarding the care of my son when I am so uncomfortable asserting myself to people in authority (doctors, even daycare workers) or anyone I don't trust 100% of the time? I think the only person I am truly assertive with all the time is my husband.

I guess I just have to figure it out, somehow.

Hi everyone,

I created a public journal for use on facebook and for my non-lj friends to enjoy updates about my life. If you're interested, and if you want to add it to your friends list, feel free.

The link is: savienu.livejournal.com

I stole this idea from ky_whitney, I hope she doesn't mind!

Poll #804308 Possible girl names
Open to: All, detailed results viewable to: All, participants: 15

Which name do you like better? (Includes middle name)

We already have a boy's name decided on: Keegan, though we're still trying to agree on a middle name for him.

edit: btw, the last name, for those who don't know, is Avienu, pronounced AH-VEE-AHNNOO

I cleaned up my friends list a little bit. I deleted people who either don't post or who I don't even remember anymore. If you find I deleted you and want a re-add, same drill, send me a message here.
I also changed up my layout. :-D

Write 10 things you want to tell 10 different people
Don't let people comment, and never talk about it with anyone again:

1. I never really got over you.
2. I'm lucky to have met you, and I don't know what I'd do without you in my life.
3. You taught me what it was like to have a mother, and for that I'm eternally grateful.
4. I still haven't forgiven you for the way you treated me when we were kids.
5. You and I made a really big mistake.
6. You're the most beautiful woman I've ever met, but you'll never know I feel that way.
7. Why the hell do you have to make everything a fucking pissing contest?
8. I don't regret knowing you, or loving you.
9. You seriously need to lighten up.
10. I promise you, one day he will just propose.

And now, at long last, the song I was hoping you all would hear earlier today:

VoicePost 494K 2:56

“Lonely is my heart since you went away I wish that you'd stayed I know you're not in pain Your tiny soul is fine The hurts all mine Dreaming of you Longing for you My guardian angel in the sky I'd give my last breath to hold you in my arms See you smile at me You're the best thing I did right and I miss what should have been A happy family Dreaming of you longing for you My guardian angel in the sky” Transcribed by: exoticdaydream

Ok, so this thing is a whole lot better than *sign up for 10 offers and spend $3000 and get a free ipod!* All you have to do is complete one offer (of which one you can actually spend $1 on!) and then get 5 people to sign up for 1 offer! (Which, btw, if you do this, means you get an Ipod, too, if you refer 5 people.)
I've read the ToS, and, working for a company that works for rewards venues similar to this, I know it's legit! So, help me out why don't you, and get a free Ipod while you're at it!

http://ipods.freepay.com/?r=22142257

This is the most amazing blog entry I have read in a long time: http://www.livejournal.com/users/radven/15750.html

To this man, thank you. Thank you for saying this. This is my motivation for being out and proud and loud publically: for all the other kids being treated like shit for who they are and what they can't control. It's the reason I pushed to have a "Diversity club" started in my private Catholic highschool even after I graduated and I knew there was no chance in it being a support group for me.

I just wish I could be more optimistic about this article, in thinking that this would actually change anything. But at the very least it affected me very deeply, and I hope it touches others as well. I've made this post public because I believe this needs to be seen by all who may happen upon this journal.